Manifesting a life I love

As the weather warms up, my opportunity to get outside opens up.  Today, the weather was beautiful!  Highs in the 70’s, blue skies…and it isn’t bug season yet!  This girl was ready to hit the trail! 

As I started hiking I became aware of feelings I was experiencing, and I noticed them roll off.  There is something magical about being in nature. 

I felt excited for the upcoming travel and hiking opportunities I have planned.  

I felt stressed about how busy the next two weeks are going to be.

I felt lonely for the people I love that I’m not feeling connected to in this season. 

I had a moment of intense sadness as I realized Allan’s girls didn’t feel I was a safe place to go to when they were hurting.  I feel like I failed to show them how much I care.  My eyes welled up with tears and I felt disappointed with myself.

Within minutes of hiking, I felt this peace come over me…It felt like this whole body peace.  I could stay out on this trail all day and hike, I absolutely love doing this!   I’m not even anywhere really beautiful and I’m enjoying it so much…

I find my normal hiking flow takes over…

I slowly get into the hike and find my rhythm, taking in the sights and sounds around me, while I process my thoughts.  Then, shifting to a faster pace once I reach the half way mark and grinding to get back. 

I make it to the 4 mile mark and I turn around to hike back.  I passed a couple on the way back and the lady says to me…WOW you’re really moving!  I giggle and confirm her awareness.  I’ve got places to be, I say. lol

I wasn’t judgmental of my natural rhythm, I like it.  I like me.  

I realize that for one of the first times, I’m manifesting the life I want.  I smile so big at this thought!   

On the way back the last album I play is Shinedown: Planet Zero.  I immediately think of Allie, her sweet smile and how much fun she is at concerts!  

I remember the first time I heard this album.  I was driving out to high country Yosemite with Allan.  About two songs in, I pass a couple on the trail sitting at an overlook eating their sammie’s as they take in the views.  Yup…that’s the same meal choice for a day hike Allan and I eat. Mmmmm…pickles…yummy!  As soon as I pass them, the song ‘Daylight’ plays.  No way… this is our song…. 

Wowed by all the connections, I smile SO big!

I take time to focus on my vision of my future.  I see nature…a commitment to a partner, time with family, and friends that I have things in common with.  I smile SO big!  My time is coming!

I get back to mom and dad’s and share lunch with everyone.  Elijah and Maddy light the room up with their abundant energy.  We discuss Elijah’s love for mountains and hiking.  I watch Oakley and Goldie interact and enjoy the company.

My heart is full! 💕

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